I’ve read that if you have trouble sleeping because you have a lot of shit on your mind, it helps if you write all that shit down. It’s kind of like letting someone else, in this case the paper, worry about your problems while you fall sound asleep. I think it makes some sense, so here we go!
I’m starting to feel pretty worthless at work. I’m getting upset how unorganized ebay is, and how they have not provided me with adequate training. But this is how it’s going to be and I have to accept it. I also need to start putting myself out there, talking to new people, and learning the shit that I am going to be in charge of. It’s still early. I just found out my responsibilities 3 days ago, yet my grace period is over and I need to start contributing.
Bad timing yet again though. I’m caught in the grips of a major alcohol and cigarette bender, and it’s definitely been wearing on me. I need to clean up my act if I want to start improving my life and career.
I wussed out yet again on calling that chick. I don’t even think she’s that hot, yet I am still afraid of rejection/awkwardness. I need to just suck it up and call. Even if it’s a total failure, at least I get more experience on calling random girls up.
I saw some pics of my ex last night. For some reason she keeps looking better and better, and it makes me forget what a blemished circus clown she looked in natural light. I know I’m over her though. Personality-wise, we just never clicked from the very beginning. We didn’t even click physically. But at least I cured my PND during the whole ordeal, which has improved my life. Now I just need to start excising and quit smoking.
I NEED TO START KICKING SOME ASS AT WORK! I have to at least try to fake like I give a shit. A old pick-up artist technique is to just act like someone else who you feel has strong game. And at the very least, that’ll start giving you the confidence to act outside your shell. I need to start imitating my smart confident friends, and start kicking some ass and taking some names.
